How To Forgive Yourself For The Version Of You That Didn't Know Better | AFR S5E1

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Welcome to Absolutely Focused
Radio Season 5, Episode 1, How

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to forgive yourself for the
version of you that didn't know

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Better, featuring Daniel and
Marcus, the motivator.

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If you've ever replayed a
mistake, if you've ever judged

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your past, if you've ever felt
stuck in something you already

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survived, this episode is for
you.

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Stay focused.
Marcus, quick question for you.

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If the version of you from your
hardest season walked into this

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room right now, would you shake
his hand?

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Would you thank him for
surviving?

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Or would you judge him?
Listener, I'm asking you to.

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That's heavy.
Most people are still angry at a

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version of themselves who didn't
have today's awareness.

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That's like being mad at your
old phone for not running the

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newest update.
It didn't have the patch yet.

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Exactly.
You don't smash the phone, you

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install the upgrade.
But when it comes to our cells,

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we treat 1 error like total
system failure.

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Let's slow this down for a
second, because this next part

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matters.
When you replay a mistake over

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and over, your brain activates
its stress circuits.

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Stress increases emotional
reactivity, and when emotional

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reactivity goes up, clear
decision making goes down.

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South Shame basically puts your
brain in airplane mode.

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You're still functioning, but
you're disconnected from

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clarity.
Exactly, and if someone has

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struggled with drinking, stress
plus shame can increase craving

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cycles not because they're weak,
but because the nervous system

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is overloaded.
Listener quick system check.

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Are you healing or are you
replaying error logs?

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Let's go anatomy.
The liver filters toxins, and

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here's something powerful.
The liver regenerates.

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It rebuilds.
That's the metaphor right there.

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Your body is designed to
recover.

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Your identity is not the one
part of you that's frozen in

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time.
If your liver can regenerate,

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why can't your mindset?
Motivation.

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Fact.
Your body believes in recovery

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more than your inner critic
does.

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Let's make forgiveness
practical.

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Here's the upgrade path.
One, name What happened?

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Honestly.
Two separate behavior from

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identity 3 Extract the lesson. 4
Release the label. 5 Set a new

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standard.
Forgiveness is not a feeling,

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it's a sequence.
That's not denial, that's

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growth.
Forgiveness doesn't mean you

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excuse it, it means you refuse
to live inside it.

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If you keep reopening the same
error message without installing

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the fix, that's not reflection,
that's rumination.

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Stop rereading the same
emotional e-mail from 2018.

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Unsubscribe from your own Shame
newsletter.

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If this conversation is
resonating, take a moment right

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now.
Subscribe.

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Like, share this episode with
someone who needs it.

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Someone you love is carrying the
same weight you're releasing

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right now.
Growth multiplies when you pass

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it forward.
And now back to the

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conversation.
Let's talk hard.

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Shame says I am bad.
Growth says I was learning.

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Listen, if you truly didn't know
better, then what exactly are

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you still punishing yourself
for?

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And who taught you that
punishment was the only path to

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growth?
When you come back in a month,

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will your answer be the same?
You didn't know what you didn't

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know that version of.
You made decisions with the

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awareness available at the time.
Every sober day is a software

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update.
Every lesson learned is a patch

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installed.
Every moment of awareness is a

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new line of code rewriting your
future.

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The brain rewires, the heart
adapts, the liver regenerates.

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Technology updates.
Why are you the only thing not

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allowed to evolve?
You are not your worst decision,

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you are your current direction.
If you didn't know better then

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and you know better now, what
will you choose tomorrow?

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Because tomorrow is the only
place your power actually lives.

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Let that sit.
This episode discusses personal

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growth and behavioral patterns
for educational purposes only.

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It is not medical or
psychological diagnosis or

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treatment.
If you are struggling with

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substance use or mental health
concerns, please seek

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professional support.
I release who I was.

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I honor what I learned.
I move forward stronger.

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I forgive the version of me that
didn't know better, because that

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version survived long enough for
me to become this one.

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Absolutely focused Radio season
5 Episode 1 How to forgive

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yourself for the version of you
that didn't know better.

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Stay focused, stay growing, and
as always, stay awesome with

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purpose.
Grounded and clear ain't running

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from the past.
I'm just shifting the gear.

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If you feel disconnected, just
know you're not broke.

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Sometimes healing starts with a
single reboot.

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My mind was an air dream.
One just connect.

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Dishonest, but I went back on my
back.